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Makoto Fukami mfmarchiosas@applenet.net
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Status reports of everyone. Is everyone healing fine?

We need to come up with a plan. It took far too long to take out that horde. We have to train somehow. Has anyone had any success with calling on that power since then?

... Also, this is a more personal note, but... it's been a while since I've been in school. I have Gen's memories of it, but is anyone else having trouble with this?

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I'll have to check. I don't like the idea of another presence in my head, though.

[It reminds him too much of that time he'd been taken over by Alain... even if they're fine now and he doubts Alain would do that to him again, it's still weird to think of another presence in his mind.]

You have experience with these... things?

It isn't really another presence. It's part of you - a side of your personality you don't normally show. I'm used to them being much more present than this...

I've been a Persona-user for ten years. Maybe longer, depending on how time works.

[Ten...twenty six? Maybe technically he's only begun, considering the reset. He'll...think about that later.]

Ten years... huh. My normal abilities aren't working, even if I did have the items I need with me.

Any advice on using Persona?

This is far from what I'm used to... Chronos was much stronger and seems to have had more abilities than Shax. Summoning is different. The core is the same, but all the rules have changed.

Until I figure out the new system, most of my advice is inavalid... So I'm left with this: as a Persona-user, you can no longer run or hide from your true self. Attempting to will end badly. Very badly.

Edited 2017-06-15 06:02 (UTC)

What do you mean by that?

[He takes some time to respond; he has to think on how he wants to answer that. How does he explain Joker? The others had the Shadows, but that was atypical - creations of rumors. Joker... Joker was all him. Stupid, misguided him.]

Just because this power is part of you doesn't mean it isn't still a personality. Losing track of yourself or denying yourself will bring a response, and a change. I don't know all the possible ways it could go wrong.

What I do know is someone important to me died because someone lost himself and misused his power.

[Hopefully dancing around the whole truth like that is...enough. He's not okay with it, but trying to warn others away from the mistakes he made is more important than his own comfort.]

Edited 2017-06-15 08:45 (UTC)

[Oh. ... That... it makes him think of Alain, of Adel, of Adonis. Of creating a 'perfect world'. He almost responds, and then he rereads the first bit again.]

It isn't a denial if it's not really you.

[He could never be as deceitful and strange as those doppelgängers. Even if they had absorbed things from him... he's still the real Makoto Fukami.]

[... He's fairly sure, at least.]

I know who I am now. No power is going to change that, no matter what world it comes from.

But it is you. All people wear masks. Your Persona is just one of yours.

You'll be fine as long as that's true, instead of just thinking it's true.

[Trusting himself too much was how it all started. It's even more dangerous than not trusting anything, in his experience.]

The Persona, maybe. That thing, no.

[Even if it did save his life in the end, he can't forgive it or what it was connected to.]

I can't let a power change who I am. There's too many people to protect.

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