6/3, afternoon

[kouteipenguin]

This is it, right? Whatever awakening is could be any time now...

Honestly, I'm scared. I've never been this scared before, and I don't even get why. I want to say it's just an app or that it's just them trying to brainwash us or confuse us. I really want to say that. But I don't think I can anymore, it feels like I'm trying to deny something to say that. I really feel like I'm losing my mind. Maybe losing myself.

I can't stand the waiting. That's the worst part. I can't pay attention to anything. I can't care about anything else anymore. This stupid app and its stupid hallucinations or memories or reprogramming are driving me insane. It's taken over my whole life! I couldn't sleep last night at all. Its dumb but I was scared to wake up. That's how much this gets to me. I hate it!

I can't be the only one to feel this way, right?\

this got longer than I expected it to

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Comments

[forsteri]

I don't know. I half feel like I'd rather be crazy than have this be real.

I don't want what I have to break.

[If his reality with Mako is destroyed... what does he even have left?]

[kouteipenguin]

I feel the same. I can't lose all the people who are important to me. I can't stand even thinking about them being less somehow.

[forsteri]

I wonder about it... I don't want that to happen, either. It's only my brother and me.

[kouteipenguin]

You're going together right? If you go.

[forsteri]

Yeah. What about you?

[kouteipenguin]

I'm envious. I uh

I'm gonna have to make a run for it

[forsteri]

What? Why, do you live nearby?

[kouteipenguin]

Yeah

I'm close to school

so it'll be no problem

I hope

[forsteri]

I live close, too. Meet us somewhere.

[kouteipenguin]

You do?

[forsteri]

Yeah. I can walk in the morning.

[kouteipenguin]

I do that too!

[forsteri]

Then

Okay
You know that intersection where there's a convenience store on each corner?

[kouteipenguin]

Yeah I do

[forsteri]

We can meet you there. Don't go by yourself.

[kouteipenguin]

ok

[Right back to 'is it safe to go out' dance it is, then, but more confident than before.]

[forsteri]

Really. I'd say we'd come pick you up to start with, but I'm not sure if we're THAT close.

[kouteipenguin]

I can make it there

[He HAS to.]