6/3, afternoon

[kouteipenguin]

This is it, right? Whatever awakening is could be any time now...

Honestly, I'm scared. I've never been this scared before, and I don't even get why. I want to say it's just an app or that it's just them trying to brainwash us or confuse us. I really want to say that. But I don't think I can anymore, it feels like I'm trying to deny something to say that. I really feel like I'm losing my mind. Maybe losing myself.

I can't stand the waiting. That's the worst part. I can't pay attention to anything. I can't care about anything else anymore. This stupid app and its stupid hallucinations or memories or reprogramming are driving me insane. It's taken over my whole life! I couldn't sleep last night at all. Its dumb but I was scared to wake up. That's how much this gets to me. I hate it!

I can't be the only one to feel this way, right?\

this got longer than I expected it to

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[lovelledup]

You're definitely not the only one.

[forsteri]

Before, I told you I didn't feel scared.

[Now he is. Sakuma Jirou is all he can think about. Sakuma Jirou, whose family he knows nothing about, who expects himself to have a dark place in his heart. A dark place that Yoshio knows isn't only Sakuma's.

Yoshio takes a long time to continue his message, but finally he does.]

That wasn't a lie.
But now I think... that's not true anymore.
Am I becoming someone else? Or was I someone else the whole time and didn't realize? Or maybe all of it is fake.
But we're all having them, aren't we? So I can't be crazy, unless this is a case of mass insanity.
But that seems unlikely, doesn't it?