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Kidou Yuuto [鬼道 有人] ([personal profile] kouteipenguin) wrote in [community profile] applenet2017-06-03 03:17 pm

6/3, afternoon

This is it, right? Whatever awakening is could be any time now...

Honestly, I'm scared. I've never been this scared before, and I don't even get why. I want to say it's just an app or that it's just them trying to brainwash us or confuse us. I really want to say that. But I don't think I can anymore, it feels like I'm trying to deny something to say that. I really feel like I'm losing my mind. Maybe losing myself.

I can't stand the waiting. That's the worst part. I can't pay attention to anything. I can't care about anything else anymore. This stupid app and its stupid hallucinations or memories or reprogramming are driving me insane. It's taken over my whole life! I couldn't sleep last night at all. Its dumb but I was scared to wake up. That's how much this gets to me. I hate it!

I can't be the only one to feel this way, right?\

this got longer than I expected it to

Have this as payment for reading, if you type random facts into google it gives you random facts.
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[personal profile] lovelledup 2017-06-03 09:16 pm (UTC)(link)
You're definitely not the only one.
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[personal profile] lovelledup 2017-06-04 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
Sticking with my family and some friends tonight. I think we're all scared at this point, but at least it helps to not be alone.
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[personal profile] transient_specter 2017-06-04 02:49 am (UTC)(link)
We'll be fine. Whatever it is can't hurt us if we work together.

[Though he's not sure how much of that he believes, himself.]
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-03 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Before, I told you I didn't feel scared.

[Now he is. Sakuma Jirou is all he can think about. Sakuma Jirou, whose family he knows nothing about, who expects himself to have a dark place in his heart. A dark place that Yoshio knows isn't only Sakuma's.

Yoshio takes a long time to continue his message, but finally he does.]


That wasn't a lie.
But now I think... that's not true anymore.
Am I becoming someone else? Or was I someone else the whole time and didn't realize? Or maybe all of it is fake.
But we're all having them, aren't we? So I can't be crazy, unless this is a case of mass insanity.
But that seems unlikely, doesn't it?
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-03 10:53 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know. I half feel like I'd rather be crazy than have this be real.

I don't want what I have to break.


[If his reality with Mako is destroyed... what does he even have left?]
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-04 06:56 am (UTC)(link)
I wonder about it... I don't want that to happen, either. It's only my brother and me.
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-05 11:28 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. What about you?
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-05 05:37 pm (UTC)(link)
What? Why, do you live nearby?
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-05 05:46 pm (UTC)(link)
I live close, too. Meet us somewhere.
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-05 10:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah. I can walk in the morning.
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-07 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
Then

Okay
You know that intersection where there's a convenience store on each corner?
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-07 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
We can meet you there. Don't go by yourself.
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[personal profile] forsteri 2017-06-11 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Really. I'd say we'd come pick you up to start with, but I'm not sure if we're THAT close.